... Yeah.

Jun. 22nd, 2017 04:46 am
insaneladybug: (baxterstockman)
You know you're probably too obsessed with a character when you feel bad to kill a filthy fly to keep it from getting in the house as soon as the door's opened. But I killed it anyway, regardless of it reminding me of poor Baxter. I wasn't about to fight with a fly in the living room. I would have captured it alive if I could have and turned it loose elsewhere on the property, but I didn't have anything with me to enable me to catch it alive. And of course, I couldn't go through the door to get something or it would have got in. (I could have gone in and out through the garage way, but by then it might have gone into hiding and still popped out when someone tried to go through the front door....)

There's also a giant miller loose in the garage, where I couldn't get to it. Ugh. If that gets in the house, we will not be happy either. I hate moths....

And I've gotta say, as much as I hate humans turning into non-mutant animals, Bebop's line in Bye, Bye, Fly regarding Shredder is classic: "How come we have to take orders from an insect?!" ROTFLOL. It makes me think, of all things, of the utter preposterousness of a BAKED BEAN being the Big Bad in that Xiaolin Showdown cartoon. I always wondered why it had minions that agreed to help it. They must have either really respected it or they saw its plans were working and they'd get rich from it. But seriously, WTH. As much as I enjoy lighter things these days, that is still too out there for me.

Fiddling with the next story, which is a crossover between the 87 series and the 1990s movie verse. And worried about listing it as being for the 87 series since there some extensive flashbacks to things in the movie verse.... Such scenes are far longer and more detailed here than in the Platinum Dunes crossover. Of course, the 87 verse is still the "host" verse and the movie verse characters are guest-stars, but since there's scenes featuring just the movie verse characters, I worry. Still, there's not much else I can do since I can't list both of them like I can on AO3, and when picking one, it definitely seems like it should be 87 verse.

It's times like this when I realize how deeply affected I still am by that WWW reviewer who slammed me for making oneshot characters so important in those stories. Now I'm always worrying about doing something that will make the readers mad in every fandom. Ugh. I still do what I want, but I worry about it.

But on the plus side, FF.net agreed to add both Barney and Z as character choices! Squeee. I made immediate use of both of those options.
insaneladybug: (Default)
So there's been some contention at the Pony forum again. This one person still tends to only say anything positive on Rainbow Dash episodes. They're silent on most others, but I think any time they've said something about an episode featuring someone else, they say how awful it is. (Except possibly one time, and that surprised me.) It's like Rainbow Dash is the only reason they watch. I can understand only watching a show for a favorite character, but putting down any episode without them seriously makes me roll my eyes. I've never been able to decide whether they're a troll or whether they're just obsessed with Rainbow Dash. They seem to think she can do no wrong. Although it does seem like once they acknowledged that she didn't always make the best decisions, but it certainly made the episodes interesting.

Well, the other day I was reading the discussion post for a Rainbow Dash episode that aired a few weeks ago. The person posted, of course, and this time got mad saying that Rainbow Dash is so unfairly hated on the forum while Starlight Glimmer is so praised. Actually, there's other people who like Rainbow and hate Starlight, but that did get me pondering, because I too would usually rather watch a Starlight episode than a Rainbow one. However, I won't just blindly dismiss any Rainbow episode as bad just because I don't like her. It just ends up that most of them ... really aren't very good. (And that may be how the other person honestly feels about the episodes that don't focus on her.) But there have been exceptions and I've liked her better in said exceptions.

Of course, there's absolutely no argument that what Starlight did was infinitely worse than anything Rainbow did. But I think for me and maybe others, the problem stems back to something I tried to explain before, that when a character is inherently a "good guy", i.e., has never been a bad guy, I tend to hold them to a higher standard. Naturally I don't want a perfect character who never does anything wrong, but if one sees the flaws more than the good side, I tend to get very irritated and not like the character. That's often the case with Rainbow Dash. She's so full of herself and rude and can be so selfish that it's often the driving force behind her episodes. She has improved somewhat, but depending on the writing, sometimes she backslides even worse.

Then with Starlight Glimmer, she was a bad guy who has been trying to reform. And I'm a sucker for repenting bad guys. I love seeing her journey and how she's trying to be good. I tend to be a little more forgiving of some stumbling (within reason) with a character who has already walked a dark path, because they're trying to turn their life around and naturally it won't happen overnight. Starlight is not a supreme favorite character like Sunset Shimmer is, but she is a similar character in the fact of being a repentant bad guy under Twilight's tutelage. I am still a little skeptical of having her reform, honestly, after what a disturbing and obsessed villain she was, but since I love showing a bad guy character's journey to changing their life, I was willing to give her a chance and I do basically like how they've handled her as good.

Now, is it right to have this distinction? I don't know. But at least they're both female characters this time, heh. For me personally, Rainbow Dash tends to tick me off way more than the reformed Starlight Glimmer, except on certain occasions. I definitely didn't like when Starlight used the spell on Twilight's friends when she was panicked about not being able to get everything done that she was supposed to. And if she did stuff like that a lot, I'd probably like her less than Rainbow Dash. But she really is trying and seems to learn from her mistakes, instead of constantly repeating them like Rainbow Dash does.

Conversely, there were some people who actually liked that Starlight used the spell in that episode, and I believe their reasoning was that they liked that she wasn't completely good. Maybe things like that were what made the Rainbow Dash fan mad. The only thing I really liked about that episode was that she learned she screwed up big time. And she hasn't repeated any such mind-controlling antics since, to my memory.

In the end, if Rainbow Dash really fully abandoned her obnoxious behavior and could be more humble, I'd probably enjoy her journey as well. But since she keeps reverting back, it makes it very difficult for me. I also find it hard to fully connect with the 87 Donatello because he's rather arrogant, unlike other Donatellos. (Also because I'm not used to so many Donatello inventions failing, heh.) At least with Donatello, though, his arrogance isn't constantly in your face like it usually is with Rainbow Dash.

Then there's the issue that, well, 87 Baxter and Barney both believe themselves to be pretty awesome scientists and yet I like them. Baxter I felt deserved redemption after his life turned upsidedown, and then I wanted to redeem Barney after I wrote him into the position I did. But here's the thing with them: we don't even see much of them in canon, and not much at all of Baxter when he's stable and trying to be good. Even after he becomes more unstable and goes with Shredder, he only makes a comment now and then about his genius. As with Donatello, it's not constantly in your face. Then he says it a lot more after Shredder abuses him one time too many and he snaps and leaves, but that was in one episode and Shredder really had been treating him rotten. We don't really see much of what he'd be like had things not gone so downhill for him. Suppose he had been redeemed and was an ally, but there were many episodes focused on him being arrogant and he never seemed to learn much of anything from it. I think that would miff me a lot. I don't tend to focus much on his arrogance in my stories; mostly he's been humbled. And with Barney, as I fleshed him out it seemed that a lot of his arrogance was a mask; he hates himself.

With any fandom, I usually end up writing one or two characters with some traits that I have, when I feel they fit the characters. (Either that or I'll latch onto a character with some traits that I have. Or both.) I am both Baxter and Barney, albeit I think Barney has more of my traits than Baxter does. Luckily I've never hated anyone the way he started out hating Baxter, but I know other aspects of that anger, that frustration. I know what it's like to be so upset by someone's stupidity that you're mad at them because you love them and you don't want them hurt. I know what it's like to be blunt, to say things that probably shouldn't be said. I know what it's like to have an extreme self-hatred because of things you've done wrong. Of course, nothing I did compares to what Barney did, but I've hated myself for anything I've done that's hurt someone. I struggled with it for years before I could finally start forgiving myself, and sometimes I can still get upset. I know what it's like to abhor feeling vulnerable and to not want it. Not to cry in front of anyone (and often not when alone, either, although I've certainly worn down on that in recent years). To be so shaken by something that the only thing I can say is something not directly about the scene. To try not to show I'm shaken or feel bad and probably succeed.

But I am also shy. I have been a doormat. I often take things until I just can't anymore. I can be gentle and quiet and do stupid things.

I am both of them.

Sniffle.

Jun. 16th, 2017 04:02 am
insaneladybug: (scofield)
So the closer we get to the DuckTales reboot, the more I dread it. Most people seem to get more excited the more they learn, while I get more uneasy. My suspicions that it will be a mix of DuckTales and comic elements are shared by others. Of course, the thing that worries me most about bringing in comic elements is that Scrooge just wasn't as close to his family in the comics, whereas their bond in the series was probably the sweetest thing about it. I just watched a YouTube video where someone was musing at length on that point. My one hope for the new series is that Launchpad made a cute quote about family, so perhaps family will still be a driving force.

Of course, in the end, eh, it's just a TV show and if I don't like it I can always put on the classic. Which I'm sure I will do even if I do end up liking the new one. They just released the opening and it's fun enough. I'm glad Glomgold will be sticking to his TV series roots instead of his comic roots. But still super leery overall. Also really hoping it won't be a period piece like the comics.... I think that would depress me.

Ah well. I need to think about other matters, like how to celebrate Christopher Cary's birthday today. I dug up a trailer for a movie he made called Beyond the Universe and squeed all over that he was in the trailer. It's not my kind of movie at all; I hate post-apocalyptic stuff. But I'd watch it for him. It looks like his part in it is pretty big.

Maybe later today I'll watch his Riptide episode.

Also, still having a ball with my slice-of-life fic. I hope the readers won't be annoyed by its presence. It's mainly a bunch of conversations tying up loose ends from the prior fic, but there's also a mini-conflict and some hints of things to come.

Finally, we do have hot water again! Squeee!
insaneladybug: (z)
So, while I'm still in the process of debating whether to risk that seller's 92% positive feedback and get the Hello Kitty messenger bag, Build-a-Bear has to decide to send a good coupon at long last, only good for the weekend. I've been wanting Starlight Glimmer, but I wanted to wait for a good sale or some such so I wouldn't have to pay full price. There's a slim chance I could go out this weekend, if Dad decides to go to a picnic on Saturday (and if I'm not incapacitated over the weekend, but I'm pretty sure I will be, ugh). Also, I still kind of want a Wonder Woman doll.... And there's the problem of wanting Beauty and the Beast but not liking the current price.... And the problem of wanting to save some money for the Scottish Festival.... Heh.

We are also still without hot water. That may be rectified today, if the part finally comes as it's supposed to. Mom has been going bonkers without hot water and I didn't feel I could wash my hair satisfactorily by pouring big yogurt containers of hot water over it, so I took a cold shower instead. A very cold shower.

Adventures with the cats continue. The female cat, whom I have called Sweet Baby for years as a pet name and now can't imagine calling her anything else, still likes to rub me and sometimes to lay on my shoe so I can't leave. I haven't tried petting her anywhere except on her head, as she definitely seems to still like that. The male cat was christened Rocky Road, because he's always in my path as I walk and I've almost tripped on him repeatedly. This past night I did trip on him, gah. He got startled and yeowled and Sweet Baby didn't seem to want a pat right afterwards. I wondered if she thought I'd deliberately stepped on Rocky and thus felt leery, even though she doesn't like him. But she seemed to settle down later and wanted lots of head-pats, so hopefully she realized it was an accident, as I've also backed into her a couple of times in the past. Rocky didn't seem inclined to get in my way and it would be nice if that would continue, but at the same time I hope he doesn't think I did that on purpose. He seemed a little chilly afterwards.

I finished my fic, love it, and feel that the characters and I all need a break, so I started writing a slice-of-life fic for the next one. It will have a lot of fall-out/recovery from the previous fic, character studies, and fun times with Bebop and Rocksteady wanting a day off, LOL. It probably won't be long, but it will be a nice bridge to whatever is the next escapade.

I also wonder why everyone and their dog says the Howie Hardy songwriter character's appearance is based on Woody Allen. Okay, there are similarities, but I fail to understand basing a rock-and-roll songwriter on a movie guy. Buddy Holly seems like a much more plausible inspiration choice. Especially since I saw a picture of him and discovered that he had curly hair (whereas I previously thought he didn't). Unless there's some official word that Howie was based on Woody Allen, I will continue to feel that Buddy Holly was the real inspiration. (Or heck, maybe both were an inspiration. Maybe Howie's voice is like Woody Allen's; couldn't prove or disprove that by me.)

Also, Google Translates Sings is one of the funniest things ever. They take a song, translate it into several languages and then back to English. It's like a really hysterical game of Telephone; most of the time it comes back sounding utterly ridiculous. Crescent Blue introduced me to it and I've been laughing at their YouTube videos for the last couple of days. I'll Make a Man Out of You is still my favorite, but Be Our Guest, The Phantom of the Opera, and some nursery rhymes are up there too.

Lyric samples:

"Mysterious as the dark side of the moon" came back as "mysterious as the dark long of the shoe."

"Be Our Guest" came back as "Be Our Guestroom" (and the guy did an incredible Jerry Orbach impression!)

"The Phantom of the Opera" came back as something different each time the phrase was used. LOL. One usage was "The demon of the opera." **snerk.** It only got better from there.

"This old man goes rolling home" came back as "The old people rolled into the house."

ROTFLOL.

Also, "Hellfire," probably Disney's creepiest song, made one of the most hysterical parodies throughout. Their Lion King songs were pretty funny too. But wow, I haven't heard "Be Prepared" since I was a child and when I read the original lyrics that ran across the top of the video ... wow. Pretty unsettling song for a kids' film. Pretty much all of that song went completely over my head as a kid, even though I did get the basic gist of what it meant.
insaneladybug: (barneystockman)
There's a Sailor Moon bag I really like, but it costs $25. I really didn't want to pay that much if I could avoid it. I also discovered a couple of adorable drawstring bags. I especially love the Chibiusa one. It's so happy and cute and tempting. But I imagine a drawstring bag only has one compartment. As much as I'd like the Chibiusa one, I need to be practical. And I would really function better with multiple compartments. I also saw a Turtles drawstring bag, but I'm pretty sure I saw that one in person at Wal-Mart and thought it seemed flimsy. It's mesh-like.

Then, as much as I said I didn't want a backpack, I found a couple of adorable My Little Pony ones with multiple compartments. They're very tempting, but I'm wondering if I could fit into them. They're probably the biggest child backpacks, so I might be able to fit into them. I can wear boys' shirts in the XL size. But girls' shirts in the XL size are usually impossible, ugh. So I don't know about a girls' backpack. Of course, in a month back to school stuff will start showing up around here since kids return to school in August, and I could try a backpack on in person then, but I wanted a solution found before then. (Since I was hoping to save money for the Scottish Festival, though, I really might not have found a solution by then.)

I knew I really wanted a messenger bag the most, so I went back to looking at those for Hello Kitty. There's some of those that are fairly low-priced. Of course, some of them are also too small, so I have to be careful to check all sizes in the product descriptions. I really like one on Amazon, but the seller has only 92% positive feedback. The number is calculated based on performance in the past year. He has 96% overall, but 92% in the past year seems scary. I don't like to dip lower than 97% positive. Then there's a design I didn't like as much as that one but still considered because it's only $10. Dad apparently signed himself up for a free trial of Prime and then forgot to cancel it before they charged him. **headdesk.** So if he hasn't canceled it yet, I could hurry and get that bag through his account. It's a shiny bag, though, so I wonder if it would be too flashy to have in places like church. In the pictures, Hello Kitty's picture keeps catching the light and shining like a piece of foil.

At least the story has been flowing. The ones I write that focus mostly on Baxter, Barney, and/or Vincent are the ones I take the most joy in, in general, and they write themselves very quickly for the most part. But I think I need to split a scene where Baxter and the crook are talking and then the people the crook wants to cheat show up, as that scene ends up with the climax stuff and I think I should really have another night before that happens. On the other hand, though, if Baxter has a whole night to stew about this undercover assignment and what he's found out about the people's identities and the fact that the crook plans to kidnap the girl if he can't get her uncle to sell him the religious relic, it may not have the same impact when I get to that scene. As it is, Baxter is panicked because he's just learned of those plans and then the people show up, and I kind of like the effect of him having to act immediately with no prior plan in mind. So maybe if I want another night, I should instead write a new daytime scene at an earlier point and then a nighttime scene, and then this current scene should stay the way it is, just taking place a day later. Or maybe I'll decide that I don't need more after all. I'd better proofread the whole thing and then decide.

I've also been pondering for some time on what my favorite 87 Turtles episodes are, like the actual Top 10 list. I mostly like ones that are light and funny and make me smile, and that somehow capture the innocent cheese of the 80's/early 90's. That always makes me feel nostalgic.

- I've listed Super Bebop and Mighty Rocksteady as my most favorite for a while. It's just so hysterical. I even showed it to Mom and she thought it was priceless too. The one thing I don't like is that the Channel 6 crew is mostly a joke as they are forced to be the victims of the malfunctioning mind-control device, but the episode makes me laugh so much that I tend to forgive that. I think what I enjoy the most is seeing Shredder utterly baffled by all the weirdness.

- I also keep thinking that any favorites list would have to include Take Me to Your Leader, because it was the first episode I saw outside of the Cowabunga Classics compilation and it remains one of the best examples of how utterly ridiculous and fun the show could be at the same time.

- Cowabunga Shredhead must be included. Shredder getting made fun of is always a scream, and hearing James Avery imitate Michelangelo as Shredder believes he's really the Turtle never gets old. I have been thinking that Michelangelo seems OOC at the beginning of that episode, though, as while even though he's nuts about pizza and might like to take it all, he doesn't deprive the other Turtles of all the pizza in any other episode. He's always pretty willing to share, really. He seems to love sharing his crazy pizza varieties with the others. I guess it's possible that he just got carried away and didn't even realize he'd eaten it all until he was done, though. And that could explain hiding guiltily in the cupboard.

- Curse of the Evil Eye would make the list, I'm pretty sure, and probably also The Mean Machines. One features Baxter finally rebelling against Shredder's abuse, while the other features probably the most screentime for him as a human.

- I would probably include The Mutagen Monster, because it's another great example of the show being so fun and silly. And they fix the problem instead of the poor cows having to stay a monster, so that's certainly a plus.

- I love the two Howie episodes, and I think they'd make the top 20 if not the top 10. So much fun with all the ridiculous song parodies, and then I love haunted theatre storylines!

- I debate whether episodes like Raphael Knocks 'Em Dead and Son of Return of the Fly II would make the list. The former is a blast and we meet Barney, and Barney's appearance would be what could push the episode to the top 10, but I'm thinking more it might make a top 20 list. And I don't like seeing Baxter suffering as a fly creature, but I do like seeing Z/Vincent and it's fun watching him walk around and imitate organic beings with all of his wild gesturing and posing. I don't, however, think any of the fly-Baxter episodes would make a top 10 list. This one might place as honorary mention on a top 20 list, though, just because of how important Z is in my verse and this is probably the one with him I re-watch the most. Revenge of the Fly is awfully depressing, really, although we do see a Z who has changed to the point that he is fiercely protective of Baxter in a way he isn't in the prior episodes, and I do love that aspect. And Bye, Bye, Fly, well, I re-watch it quite a bit since it's Z's intro episode, but it also has two instances of characters turning into non-anthro animals (albeit they do still keep their intelligence, at least). So that would keep it off a top 10 or 20 list, probably. I wouldn't even care about it if it weren't for Z.

Along those lines, I've been discovering that I've slipped into finding it difficult to watch Leatherhead's intro episode or the Ireland episode. I've seen the Leatherhead one several times, then the last time I watched it fine until we hit the weirdo pool, and then I decided I just wasn't up to seeing Shredder get age-reduced. Same thing happened with Bebop and Rocksteady in the Ireland episode. I saw it once, then went on ages and saw it again when I'd forgot that aspect, and then the third time I watched the first few minutes and decided I wasn't up for dealing with that aspect when this time I did remember it, so I stopped and watched the Orient Express episode instead. Honestly, the best thing about the Ireland episode is the community property line. ROTFLOL. But yeah, I just can't stand age-reduction in any form, even if it's the villains affected, and I'm amazed that I watched it at all in those episodes (let alone that I watched Detective Conan for a while). It just seriously rubs me the wrong way, and don't expect me to ever watch Three Men and an Egon. I saw a couple of clips and that was more than enough.

Anyway, maybe someday I'll figure out an entire top 10 list. Clearly I haven't yet, but I do know some of what would be on it (and some of what wouldn't be).
insaneladybug: (baxterstockman)
Now the water heater is dead. It seems to be the thermocouple and maybe the pilot light too. Thank God this happened in summer and not winter, but ugggh, we need hot water! Warming some up on the stove every time we need it is not convenient. Oh, we are so pampered in this modern age. And now we'll have something else to pay for that we can't afford, yet we can't afford not to.

And I'm in super-headache mode from a combination of nervous insomnia and sitting too close to a movie screen thanks to assigned seating. Blech. (I loved the movie, but not the seating. I saw Wonder Woman and now I kind of want one of the dolls Wal-Mart is selling. They kept not making a Wonder Woman movie because she was "tricky" for them to grasp for some reason, but they did a basically awesome job with this one! Could have done without one scene, though. But I found it awesome that Robert Pine's son played Steve Trevor.) I hope this won't go on long; this is the second day of it. I thought I was feeling better, but it came back on after a while. And I have to get up early on Sunday for another singing assignment. I'm really worried that will mess me up for days on end now that this headache mess came on again.

Speaking of movies, haven't bought Beauty and the Beast yet. I haven't been able to get to Wal-Mart, plus I heard that most of them aren't even doing special release week sales and are charging $20 instead. Ugh. So far the cheapest price I've heard for it is $18 and I'm not sure I'm willing to pay that much, at least not right now. Especially with the Scottish Festival only a month away. Last year I actually bought stuff there, so this year I might find stuff again. I always like to have money on hand just in case.

Earlier I finally watched Planet of the Turtleoids again, on my Cowabunga Classics DVD. That was my introduction to liking the 87 series last summer (the DVD, not necessarily the episode), and getting it out again made me feel a burst of nostalgia. My favorite watching time with it was, I believe, either the first or second time I had it out. It was late at night and my light was about the only light on in the house at that time. I watched maybe four or five of the ten episodes and I was having a blast. I finally realized the 87 series was awesome. I couldn't get enough. I felt transported back to the 80's/early 90's. I felt like a kid again. And it felt so good.

I'm rather baffled by some of the episodes viewers apparently voted on for inclusion on the set (the Gadget Man episode, wow. I mean, I like it, but to vote for it as one of the ten best? Really?), but others I totally understand. Curse of the Evil Eye is definitely an epic one. Plus it's nice for Baxter fans. I remember my initial confusion over who the character was, as I believe previously I'd only seen the season 1 design. Then Shredder addressed him as Baxter and I finally got it. I was surprised. And I remember thinking "Whoa ... yikes" when Baxter threatened the Turtles with his clay monster. Initially I didn't feel terribly sympathetic to him just from that one episode, but after watching all of his episodes, boy, did that change.

One thing I've been wondering for ages: what is the writers' obsession with wombats? In a lot of the episodes, there's jokes about wombats. David Wise did it a lot, but so did Michael Reaves, I believe. And maybe others. What's so funny about wombats? Did they just like how the word sounded? Or did someone on the writing staff really like the critters? LOL.

Now I need to decide on my next story, as the one I planned to do next I'm not sure I want to do next. It's based on that dream I recorded about the antique mall and Baxter is undercover, but I can't make up my mind whether he gets stabbed like in the dream or not. If he does, he's healed by a religious relic the crooks were after, as I have no interest in writing complications from stab wounds in the chest or lengthy recoveries and it wouldn't work well for my series when one story blends into the next and time passes slowly between stories. (Not to mention when Baxter is the main character and he kind of needs to be functional from one story to the next.) But I used a religious relic already in a Kolchak story and both relics are based on the one in an episode of Mysterious Ways, so I don't know that I should use that relic again. Maybe I need a new one. Or maybe Baxter shouldn't be stabbed and something else happens. Stabbing wouldn't even be a consideration if not for the dream and wanting to follow it as closely as possible. I shall ponder on it. Probably within a day or two I'll know what to do. I believe the next story will be #50, so I should probably try to make it a special one. The religious relic bit would fit the bill for a special one, definitely, if I decide I want to go there.
insaneladybug: (perry_hamilton)
So my poor Sonic X messenger bag seems to have died a sad death at my friend's house on Thursday. It developed a hole and starting shedding its inner material all over her chair and floor. It was a good thing we were in the kitchen with its hardwood floor, instead of downstairs with the carpet. I was able to get it all up and she gave me a large plastic bag to put my bag in so it wouldn't shed some more.

Obviously I need another bag. I'd prefer to have a character bag (Turtles or Ponies or Sailor Moon or Hello Kitty), but all the ones I like online seem to have so many bad reviews about poor quality that I hesitate to get any of them. And around here, there aren't any bags with characters on them. If I'm going to spend money on a bag, I'd really like it to be a character bag. Yet at the same time, I think it's better to examine a bag in person before getting it.

I need a big bag, too, preferably with lots of pockets and pouches to hold my stuff. And I like if it's big enough for standard notebook paper, since there are rare occasions where I still write on it while out and about. Messenger bags are the perfect size for me. Totes generally only have one compartment and no way to close them, but if I found one I liked with a zipper and at least two compartments, I'd be willing to consider it. I don't really want a backpack because it seems like it'd be easier for a pickpocket to grab something if it's on my back. Plus, I'd have to keep sliding it up and down to access it. A regular shoulder bag is much better suited to me. Large purses are also an option.

I really wish the only official Pony messenger bag had the main characters on it. I like Zecora, but it seemed an odd choice to put a recurring character and no one else on the sole Pony messenger bag.

At the moment I moved my essentials other than my standard notebook to a red purse I have. It's an alright size for temporary use, but I really need something bigger long-term. I wish the strap hadn't broke on a black bag I was using before I started with the messenger bag several years ago. The way it broke, there's no way to reattach it. It's really frustrating, because the bag itself is fine and could still be used.

I've also considered taping up the hole in my Sonic X bag with duct tape, but that would only be a temporary fix too. It sheds in my money compartment and other places are starting to rip, so it should probably retire.
insaneladybug: (fluttershy)
So the outside cat who's been here the longest has always had a good relationship with me. She loved to hang out with me and be petted and occasionally she seemed to want to be carried. She still seems to like being with me, only twice in the last week she's ended up hissing at me during petting sessions. I worried at first maybe I touched something that hurt, but it was different spots each time, and in any case, she was never mad about it before. Also weirdly, after hissing, she settled back down like nothing had happened.

Definitely worried that she's hurt somehow, or getting old and cranky and not liking petting as much anymore, or mad about the other cat that's moved himself in. (And no, he can't get her pregnant; he was apparently fixed by whoever he lived with before.) She doesn't physically act like she's hurt, but I know sometimes cats can hide it. I don't know what to do, and I worry we probably need to have her checked out by a vet, but we have no money to pay a huge bill, and the way she's acting this week, I wonder if I could even get her to come with us to a vet. Previously, I wouldn't have been worried about that at all.

I'm upset and worried and hurt and I feel like I'm losing my friend. I don't like it. At all.

Lovely.

Jun. 2nd, 2017 04:00 pm
insaneladybug: (baxterstockman)
Had more weird dreams, of the variety I like to record. Dreamed that I was showing Mom the season 6 Once finale and she was adoring it and acted like she wanted to see more of the series. In real-life, I doubt she'd be so enthusiastic, but it was nice in the dream. Of course, the finale wasn't much like the real finale. There was a scene with a squee reunion between the two groups; Rumpel and Belle and whoever was with them had been thought dead, including their two kids (a girl named Megan who was adopted in addition to Gideon) and when they come upon the others there was actually much happiness that they were okay and for some reason there was especially some reunion hugging with Rumpel and David.

Then there was other oddball stuff later, not part of the finale, and I wasn't sure whether that was also something we were watching or if that was really happening to the dream-people, because it flipped back and forth. Sean and Barry went flying in some little airplane that looked like something from 100 hundred years ago (hello, Flambards reference) and Dad and I wandered to an antique mall seeking the answer to some kind of mystery. We thought the place was a front for bad guys and were quizzing around trying to find out if Baxter was there/what his role in things was. I acted like Baxter was my darling, but whether that was reality or just an act I was putting on hoping to get information, I'm not sure. Finally Baxter came out of the back room (his hair a much darker brown than it actually was on the show) and insisted everything was fine. Later, though, there was some kind of trouble and Baxter finally confessed that something screwy was indeed going on, but that his part in things had just been to ... convince someone that someone else existed who apparently didn't? Then one of the criminals stabbed him and he collapsed and I ran to him.

Then it seemed like it was something we'd been watching. I was insisting on believing he would be okay, and we looked through videos and it seemed that my insistence did not bear out the truth, as there was something about a video including two guys who had apparently buried Baxter, or at least, had put him in an open, makeshift coffin. But that's at far as it went, so I probably continued to insist he lived anyway.

Way to be morbid, mind. There was also something about a wedding reception and fancy food and me going after leftover yummy meatballs, and that was influence from a dinner I was taken to last week at a fancy restaurant where we attended a wedding reception years ago. In the dream, that was where we found one of the things we were watching, as it was apparently something the wedding couple hadn't wanted and I absconded with it because it had Robert Carlyle in it. Heh.
insaneladybug: (hamilton_tragg)
So Facebook sent me one of its erratic notifications saying that someone posted a new picture. It was actually an album's worth of pictures, from a visit she made here a couple weeks ago for what looks like her sister's high school graduation. I looked through them all and ended up feeling pretty sad. So I guess that answers the question. I wasn't upset before just because of teetering emotions, even if that was part of it. Looks like I'm just going to continue being emotional for who knows why. Maybe the dam finally broke and stuff I bottled up for ages is just going to keep coming out.

I worked with this lady for a long time doing the church activities I still do for the 8-11 girls age group. She was probably the one I worked with the longest (three-ish years or more, I believe). I was so upset when I knew she was going to move, but eh, everyone I like always seems to do that sooner or later, so I think I tried to push back how much it hurt because I didn't know what to do and I didn't want to deal with it.

I don't know that we were really even that close. At least, it certainly wasn't like it ended up with the first girl I worked with, whom I still hang out with and will hopefully be seeing this week. This lady and I didn't really associate outside of working together. But there were friendly gestures, like she loaned me her brown permanent marker when I was making the Lou plushie and needed the brown for his eyes, and she took pictures of me holding the Ginger and Lou plushies when I had them to a point that I was ready to show them off.

There were planning meetings with just the two of us; for a while it was just us, and we'd have the activities at her house. (Funny story: the layout of her house is nearly identical to the current house of the girl I worked with first, the one I called my movie-going friend, so there's always that reminder of her when I'm over there.) And while I've had happy times all along and enjoy the company of every lady I've worked with, I think I was the happiest when it was just the two of us having cozy activities for the girls at her house. Another of my happiest activity memories is when the two of us and the only four girls who showed up to that particular activity played Capture the Flag in the church gym. There have been two other Capture the Flag activities since then, with a larger group, and honestly, they just don't come close to the happiness and fun of the time with the small group. Go figure.

Then there were a couple of misunderstandings that I feel terrible about. There was one time when we had activities planned for several months, and then she had to pull one of hers out, and naturally that moved the other activities up on the schedule. I was worried wondering how to work it because then ones that wouldn't have happened yet were coming up sooner and I needed to coordinate at least one of them and I wasn't prepared. I needed her help about something to do with it and somehow something I said gave her the impression that I was telling her that things were her fault. I felt awful. I was just trying to explain that since she'd had to pull the one activity, it moved the others up on the schedule and we needed to get going with planning those sooner than originally thought.

Then a mortifying incident when she was moving. I wanted to give her a card, but they'd already left the old house and I wasn't sure how to get it to her. She didn't offer an address to mail it to, but said they'd be checking the old house's mail a couple more times. And ugh, Facebook was being such a memory-hogging pain and wrecking the browser's performance, so I couldn't stand to be on it and I immediately closed it after asking the question of when to leave the card, and it didn't notify me of her reply, and I was mortified since it only came in a minute or two after I'd posted. I didn't think it would be easily understood how awful Facebook tends to act for me, and I was frustrated that I'd missed the chance to get the card to her. I asked if there would be any other chances and I also managed to miss that reply. Ugh, I hate Facebook so much. I felt like sinking through the floor that I'd missed that one too. And I also felt bad not to be able to get the card to her, but I wondered if I was just being a bother and she didn't even really want it since she didn't give me an address. I think she was staying with her parents at the time. She probably didn't feel she should give out their address, but eh, I felt awkward and didn't know what to do and I still have the card in my bag.

We haven't really interacted since then. We're both quiet, reserved people, which I suppose accounts for the misunderstandings and such. Probably neither of us wants to do anything to impose. Maybe she thought I was trying to give the card as a dutiful gesture or something and she didn't want to put me to any trouble if that was the reason I wrote it. I don't know.

There have been some slight interactions in the way of Liking posts and comments on Facebook. Maybe I should try seeing if her email still works and ask how things are going. Since there was some post Liking, maybe she's not still upset with me (if she ever was to begin with). If I remember right, I stopped using the email because she had to pay more for using email. But maybe she has a better set-up at the new home.

Bleh, I don't know what to do with myself. This is just stupid. Ever since I saw the picture post, I've been crying off and on missing her so flippin' much. I love the ladies I work with now, but I wish she was still here. I wasn't ready to let her go.

Hee.

May. 28th, 2017 05:45 pm
insaneladybug: (steve)
You know, it probably looks seriously shallow that when I discovered a complete series set of Charlie's Angels for $31 (MILL CREEK IS AWESOME), my response was immediate and enthusiastic and I was much more ready to jump in and buy that rather than to pay $24 for season 2 of The Virginian. But it makes sense with my current mindset of preferring fluff and squee. The Virginian is of course the deeper series, but Charlie's Angels doesn't have as many depressing episodes. And I love the friendships between the girls. And I enjoy David Doyle in a Simon Oakland-ish type of way. It's really not a bad series, if one enjoys 1970s cheese and fluff and friendship and detective shows and generally happy endings. There's a lot of worse things one could be watching.

But I was still concerned to think of dropping that much money right now, as I want to be sure to have enough to buy the live-action Beauty and the Beast when it comes out next week, so I didn't buy that either. I have it added to my Wish List, though, for the future. And I looked up Miraculous Ladybug and found that volume 4 was released last month, oy. I've been looking for it at Wal-Mart for weeks and haven't seen it, and it was cheaper on Amazon than Wal-Mart would have charged, so last night I bought that. I still have this coming week before the Prime trial expires, so if I want to go for one more small purchase, I still can.

Among the things I'm considering (I would only pick one of them):

- The Wild Wild West season 4, because my recorded copies from MeTV are probably chopped up for commercial time

- The Rockford Files season 1

- A manga I need to replace

- A couple of Nancy Drew books, as the prices for some are really good right now ($3.99 to $5.99, compared to the usual $8.99 they charge for the hardbacks these days!)

Fanfiction-wise, I'm almost done with what was probably my first Turtles-related idea, a crossover with the 87 series and the Platinum Dunes movies. I hope people will give it a chance and not throw things at me for the crossover. I was hoping I could fit Napoleon and Illya into it, as I need to write something U.N.C.L.E.-related for a birthday gift for someone, but I don't think they're going to fit and it would just look shoehorned in if I tried. So ... I'll probably have to go back to Plan A and just write a non-connected blurb.... And it will probably still be a Turtles crossover, because the plunnies just ain't biting. Good thing she likes the Turtles too....

I've also been thinking about those other plushies I bought at Jo-Ann's last year. I got them for specific characters (Coley and Snakes, I believe), because each one is handmade and looks different, so you have to look them all over and pick with specific body and head shapes in mind, but I kept changing my mind on what I wanted to do with them. I also considered Jim and Arte or even trying to make April. Making am adult female character with one of these dolls would be ... interesting. They're really better suited to making either children or adult males. But yeah, so that was another thought. Also considered making Barney, but then I'd want to make Vincent, and that would have to be from scratch, since he's a computer with a body and he's blue.... Also considered this week making the characters from The Persuaders! in memory of Roger Moore. So overall, still very conflicted. That wasn't ever really the reason why I didn't make the plushies before, though. It was because I couldn't seem to draw Coley. And because making Baxter was exhausting and I wanted a break. And then I felt I didn't need to make any other plushies right then because I was satisfied with Baxter. And still am, really. But I feel bad for those two, waiting to be made up. Maybe I shouldn't have bought them, but I got them on amazing 60% off deals and I thought I shouldn't pass it up.

I do feel a certain sentimentality that the one I picked for Baxter I picked on my birthday, and although I waffled a bit on whether to really make Baxter at that point, that plushie was always really reserved for him and when I became even fonder of the character than ever, I decided to go ahead with that plan the following month. At first I thought he'd probably be mostly for display, as I worried about jarring his glasses, but I've done a lot of cuddling with him since then.

I've been thinking about Halloween costumes too, because it's never too early to plan something fun like that, especially for one of my favorite holidays. Kind of wondering what it would take to put together a Baxter costume, honestly. As usual, I have a couple of pieces that could work, but I'd need all the rest. Of course, white lab coats are easy to come by around Halloween. I could probably find a light brown wig fairly easy too. For glasses, I'd just have to knock the lenses out of my sunglasses. They fall out all the time anyway, so it's easy to put them back. They're pretty much the right shape and everything. I actually have a black sweater vest and white shirt combo, although the shirt has thin black stripes. But it would be mostly hidden by the coat anyway. I have plenty of jeans, which appear to be what Baxter wears for trousers. And I have plenty of leftover ribbon with which to make myself a bowtie.

Hmm.

May. 25th, 2017 04:41 am
insaneladybug: (scofield)
So I think I've resolved my problem about the apartment versus the house and Baxter will live both places, as he's currently doing, more or less. He'll probably always sleep at Barney's. ThickerThanLove and I figured out where Barney probably lives (I wanted it to be in Manhattan, so probably the Upper East Side, back a ways, maybe closer to the river ... although probably not where the river is actually in sight) and that Baxter, April, and Irma possibly live not too far away in Murray Hill and Channel 6 is probably close as well, so commuting won't be a problem.

Also pondering the idea that Baxter may have studied a lot about biology, as he seemed to have some interest in it judging from his comment in The Killer Pizzas about wanting to study Dimension X wildlife, and then there's the scene where he's examining the fragment of the Eye of Sarnoth and the plant spores in It Came From Beneath the Sewers. Also, he looked so disgusted/repulsed by the green mud stuff he had to wipe off the fragment. LOL. Can't blame him there. Maybe I'll make biology his secondary field.

I adore Baxter so much, but sometimes I feel like Barney is more "my" character than Baxter is, since Barney was only used in one episode and he hence has had to be fleshed out way more than Baxter. Of course, neither of them are really mine, but I often come to feel that the oneshot or recurring characters I deal with are half-mine because of everything I've done with them.

Trying Amazon Prime again, as they offered another free trial and I needed to purchase a digital converter box (AGAIN), so I did the trial to get it here. Then I got Mom's Mother Day present from there. Now I'd like to get something for myself before the trial expires at the beginning of June. Debating whether to get season 2 of The Virginian, which is finally low enough that I feel it's a real possibility, or if I'd rather get a couple of cheaper things (like the non-double-sided disc re-release of season 1 of The Rockford Files that I just discovered exists for $7!). I like The Virginian, but unlike something like Knight Rider where I'm just all into it and adore the show enough on its own that there's no question of whether to purchase, with The Virginian I buy seasons to get certain episodes. I love the show a lot, but I have so little money that I feel I must be very careful what I purchase to make sure I get what I really want the very most. And sometimes The Virginian episodes can be so depressing that I kind of get frustrated. I think there's more that end good than ones that end bad, though.

I just looked at the episode guide for season 2 of The Virginian. I got excited at first, seeing some of the neat episodes in there, and then I saw a couple of the depressing ones and wasn't sure again what I wanted to do. I am so mad that they killed off Molly. I liked that they didn't have her fade into nothingness, but she could have moved away or something. What makes it worse is that The Virginian was just going to propose to her and she was shot dead. UGH. I hate that type of plotline! You don't want the character to be married, okay. I totally get that and usually agree with it. But why make things so freakin' saaad? I know, tragedy, drama, sympathize with the character, yadda yadda. But it's so unnecessary.

Still, though, there's two Joseph episodes and a Darren episode that season, although the only one I was really after was one of the Joseph ones where his character turns out to be a nice guy after all. The other two episodes, the darlings play flat-out bad guys. Then there's an episode where Trampas is reported dead and everyone's grieving and Steve comes, I guess to get the body, and then finds Trampas is alive and needs help. Even though I like Trampas better in the later seasons, that sounds so promising.

I won't decide anything at this point, but I'm going to be thinking about it and weighing the pros and cons. And when I've made a decision, hopefully by later today, I bet the prices will have changed again and not for the better. Ugh.

Why.

May. 23rd, 2017 04:15 pm
insaneladybug: (Default)
This has not been a great week. Or maybe month would be more accurate. And not just for me, either; gah, that horrible tragedy in the U.K....

On top of the things stressing me that I've mentioned in locked entries, now some of our closest friends in town are moving and Roger Moore is dead. I know I never quite got to where I liked him as much as other darlings, but he was still very special to me. I have a figure in his likeness and a Persuaders! picture on my wall. And a lot of DVDs. I really admire the work he did for UNICEF; that was very special, as is the fact that he considered it his crowning achievement over anything he did in the entertainment industry. He had a great sense of humor and I really liked his stance on some things, like being totally against hunting animals for sport. I also learned from reading articles today that he was actually a shy person. I can certainly relate to that. There was a lot of good in him and I am very sad to lose him. I feel so sad for his family and friends. The tributes I've been reading have been very moving and very sad.

I dread what's going to happen next.
insaneladybug: (baxterstockman)
So I finally finished that story I was working on and have gone on to the next one. But I worry I messed up. It took me a long time to think of how I wanted that story to end, and yesterday morning I thought I finally had it. I ended it with Barney asking Baxter to come live with him and Vincent, something he's wanted to ask for a long time but didn't because he was afraid it wouldn't work out considering all their past problems. He finally asked because of how Baxter had helped him during that dark time and how they had managed to overcome some more problems and grow closer. It was beautiful and I felt squeeful.

But ... dang it, I feel sad for Baxter to leave the apartment I gave him. I realized his lease wouldn't be up, so that might keep him there, and then I thought maybe he'd like to hang onto it anyway as a workshop or a place to go when he needed quiet time. Or maybe a place between shifts at Channel 6, as it's closer to Channel 6 than Barney's house. So all in all, maybe things won't really change that much from what they are right now, as he's mostly over at Barney's as it is but still goes to the apartment at times.

I guess we'll have to see. It's really a dilemma, because I want him to be with his brothers and that's what would make him happiest, but I still feel kind of sad if he's not in the building with April and Irma because I spent a lot of time thinking up the details of that idea and it meant a lot to me too. Maybe he'll still live at the apartment during the workdays and go to Barney's at night and on his days off?

Yay.

May. 17th, 2017 04:35 am
insaneladybug: (z)
Feeling much better now; hope it lasts. Feeling happier about the fic again too.

I wanted an icon of the alien computer Z, or Vincent, as he's called in my stories. (LJ users will have to come to DW to see it, I think....) Z is a behind-the-scenes name, never spoken in the episodes. And I didn't learn of it until long after I was calling him Vincent. Ooops. This is probably the cutest expression he made, when he was praising Baxter for something. He was always praising Baxter's genius, even though he could clearly see Baxter had very little of it left as the fly took over. Opinion is torn as to why. Some think he's just manipulative. Others, like me, think he's trying to ground Baxter in reality as much as possible and keep encouraging him. Heaven knows Baxter needed that. It's just too bad that Z also encouraged him to take revenge, but that could easily enough be because his culture didn't frown on it. Or because even though he can clearly think for himself, he was naive enough to figure that taking revenge would make Baxter happy, and he seems to dote on Baxter's happiness.

This episode has him making himself a body out of solid energy. That is both freakin' weird and awesome, and I never would have thought of such a thing. Props to David Wise! Vincent uses such a device in my stories too. But he also decides to wear clothes there. Hee. Even though he didn't make his body with anything that needed covering up....

The animators drew him with thick, pointed fingers, and only three of them plus a thumb. I imagine that was to make him look more mutant-like. I always draw him with normal fingers, though. I just figure he decided to try something different when he had a second chance at a body.

My Turtles site is at https://sites.google.com/site/exittheflytmnt1987/ I have a lot of fanart, links to the fanfics, musings, an interview with Baxter and Barney's voice actor (squeee!), etc. Wish I knew who voiced Z, so I could talk to him too. I've heard three different possibilities and no one seems to know for sure.
insaneladybug: (baxterstockman)
I think I've figured out what I need to do. Since for the first time my audience is divided, I believe the only right thing to do, at least for the time being, is cross-posting. I will probably post from DW and cross-post to LJ from there, and then go to LJ and edit the posts with different icons, since I assume it will only cross-post with the default icon? We'll see. (Hey, look, it posted with the same icon both places! Awesome.) Some entries will still be DW-specific, like if I want to post more silly song lyrics like I was doing earlier, but otherwise they will most likely be cross-posted for now.

It is so surprising to discover that while Leonardo remains my favorite Turtle for the 1987 series (as he is in all branches of the franchise), I believe Michelangelo is my second favorite for the 1987 series. He always irritated me through the years, even as a kid. I didn't remember the 1987 series too well, but he irritated me in my sole Archie Comic. I don't recall if he irritated me in the 1990 movie, however. But then he drove me nuts in the 2003 series.

I don't know if I mellowed out or what, because he didn't irritate me when I watched TMNT, nor in the Platinum Dunes movies (yes, I actually like those). And last summer when I watched the few season 1 episodes of the 2003 series that I have on DVD, he wasn't too much of a pain. Not a favorite, but he didn't absolutely grate on my nerves. Although I think most of my aggravation with him came from season 2 and beyond.

I found him less annoying but still kind of a pain in the 1987 series, and I'm still a little irritated with him in some episodes (like where he blasts the radio really loud while the others are trying to sleep, WTH), but a combination of writing for him in my stories and interacting every day with ThickerThanLove, a huge Michelangelo fan who brought new perspectives to the table, has seemed to result in my seeing him with new eyes. I didn't find him so annoying anymore in some episodes, like Nightmare in the Lair. When I like a character enough, I tend to forgive their faults/be amused by them/be exasperated but not turned off by them. And I seem to have mostly reached that point with Michelangelo. I never in my life thought that would happen. But considering that he's the friendliest/most forgiving of the Turtles, he's the one who ended up bonding with Baxter the most, so he's ironically the Turtle I write for the most in my stories. It's hard to keep disliking him under those circumstances. I was already starting to feel differently about him from that, and then it happened even moreso with the daily new perspectives on his character from my Michelangelo fan friend.

I owe a lot of important things in the stories to her, too. Like when Barney was so obsessive about not failing in The Golden Goose story and that led to him doing some things that have haunted him ever since, she noted how his attitude set him on a path that could definitely lead to him snapping and going psychotic someday. I thought about that and realized that while I certainly could do that, it wasn't what I wanted for him. And that story became a turning point in the opposite direction. He hit rock bottom from what he did in that story (encasing Michelangelo in gold with the goose's powers) and from that point gradually improved instead of spiraling out further. He believed more than ever that he deserved to be with villains and that he absolutely was one, but ever so slowly, his conscience and Vincent and Baxter worked on him and he started to turn his life around. And there's so many other things, little suggestions for dialogue or plot twists, or sometimes big plot twists; some stories would absolutely have not come together without her. I don't think I could list all the ways she's made my stories so much better.

The other day we were musing on our "rules" for writing stories set in 1987 verse. I said that I figured my only rules were things I would not do to the characters, similar to how I feel about pretty much every fandom. But since TMNT 87 is so wacky, there are a couple of things slightly different for it, rule-wise.

Like, I think my main things are something as follows:

- Absolutely under no circumstances will the characters unnaturally change ages, either younger or older. I think this honestly upsets me more than any other trope the series did. And it's not just a matter of how the series did it; I just really have a thing about characters being forced to be other ages than what they are, either physically or mentally or both. (That said, I have got a giggle from how both TMNT 87 and Get Smart handled characters behaving like kids while not looking like them. But I still wouldn't write even that much into the trope.)

- Likewise, no shrinking/miniaturization.

- I'm actually not as repulsed by growing big (50-foot Irma, etc.), but that said, I don't want to write it regardless.

- No broken bones or stomach wounds. I always cite having watched that Sesame Street arc about Telly's broken arm as the reason why I won't break bones. And my research on stomach wounds when I was trying to save the canonically stabbed Mr. Ecks is the reason why I say No to stomach wounds. (So probably, if I did research on other things, I might end up with a lot of other scenarios I would say No to as well. Heh. Or else decide, "Screw reality; I'm doing it the way I want it!" if it's something like a knockout, but it's pretty common in fiction not to treat knockouts like reality anyway, so I don't feel as weird for that.

- No loss of senses. Especially vision, but any sense-loss is a big no-no. (Characters can become shellshocked/not talk after something traumatic, but the ability to speak will never be removed from them.)

- While Channel 6 characters were often collectively the victims of weird stuff, Baxter likely will never be part of that if it would mean he'd be out of commission/needing to be helped for the entire story. Like when I did the Relaxatron fic and the Channel 6 crew ended up super relaxed and funny and unhelpful, Baxter escaped that fate (because Barney didn't want to do that to him). The stories are largely to develop Baxter and Barney's characters, which wouldn't be accomplished by Baxter being in weird states for the duration. And then it wouldn't be as much fun for me, heh.

- On the same lines, while it is totally encouraged to make fun of Shredder-tachi, Barney is exempt from this aside from some amusement over some of his temper tantrums. (Even that seemed to lessen, however, and the temper became a more serious issue for the most part. Which wasn't how I planned it; it just happened that way.) When Barney worked for Shredder, weird things didn't happen to him even if they happened to some or all of the rest of the group.

- In other words, Baxter and Barney are both to be treated as serious characters.

- Characters turning into animals is a necessary evil for watching this series, but I will not do it unless I'm fixing a mess canon made and didn't fully clean up (like Irma and Vernon's rat transformations lying dormant and still being able to be triggered).

- That said, characters will only ever be anthropomorphic/mutant animals. No "real-life" type animals are acceptable. Donatello Trashes Slash is one episode I've only watched once, mainly because I can't stomach Vernon and Burne turtles. The designs were really ugly and that only made it worse. (And probably now that I've brought it up, I'll end up trying to brave the episode one more time....) Bye, Bye, Fly I avoided re-watching for ages. I only feel better about watching it for Z/Vincent. Otherwise, I doubt I would.

- Characters don't die for real. (Of course.)

- The power of love is awesome. I still love to use it to redeem characters/get them out of places like Nightmare Land/get hysterical characters to calm down, etc. Barney is a neuropsychologist, but I can't see myself doing a whole lot with his knowledge of legal drugs as I've never used that as a way to calm hysterical characters down, etc. (Hysterical characters can be calmed down by the love of a family member/friend in my verse.) Of course, I've also never written problems that pretty much only could be solved by legal drugs in reality. Naturally, the power of love can't fix everything, like Shredder's brother will never manage to redeem him, but for characters who are good at heart, yeah, it works on at least some important things, like breaking through mind-control/possession and/or getting characters to fight to live.

- No magic, please, unless it's absolutely necessary. Let's use science instead. Even The Golden Goose in my verse is supposed to be science-based and not magic-based. One thing I love about the 87 series is that magic really wasn't a factor. Yeah, I still don't like magic and only use it as the means to an end if I have to. But for this series, I can use science to that end instead, so yay.

(I know/(knew?) someone who was always really exasperated/frustrated by my love of "The power of love" and preferred magic to fix things. But meanwhile, I was exasperated/frustrated by that, so I'd say it all evens out. Heh. Anyway, I eventually got so I was hesitant/wary/leery/worried to use the trope, but these days I'm encouraged to use it rather than discouraged. LOL. Go figure. I love that.)

- Even though we're using science, let's also not try to apply real-life science to situations that just can't happen in real-life (unless somehow it amazingly would work in theory).

- And since TMNT 87 pretty much said "Screw the rules!," let's hardly ever bring real-world logic in in the first place. LOL. Like, characters can be frozen in blocks of ice and then unthawed without the need for hospital stays or extreme methods of warming up. Gradually increasing the heat and burrowing into blankets works fine, LOL. (And loved ones holding them close.) Since I've expressed before that I like "instant gratification hurt/comfort" rather than recoveries that drag on and on for ages, the attitude of TMNT 87 works really well for me and I can do pretty much whatever I want without worry over not doing what's realistic.

It's funny how for years I avoided the series both because it's funny and because it has tropes I don't like, and now I totally embrace it while instead being more leery of revisiting the 2003 series. On the one hand, I'm pretty much burned out on dark things and prefer things that make me laugh. Of course, on the other hand, I was always upset by what was happening to the 2003 Baxter, even though I didn't particularly like that version of the character since he was sane but evil. I still thought he didn't deserve the horrifying things that kept happening to him, and by this point I'm so horrified/repulsed/disgusted/appalled by that that I honestly don't know if I could ever feel like revisiting most of the episodes after the worst stuff starts happening to him.

I've heard it said in some places that 2003 Baxter is 1987 Baxter done right. As far as making him a major player through the series, I'll agree. As far as what happens to them, I completely disagree, except for the fact that 2003 Baxter actually has some hope of a decent body by the end. As sickened as I am by the fly cross-fusion, 2003 Baxter's fates are physically far worse. And as far as personality, I don't think one can compare too far, since while yes, they're both arrogant/think they're awesome, 2003 Baxter is sane but evil and 1987 Baxter started out trying to be honest, as far as we can tell, and his life turned upsidedown when he trusted the wrong man. He didn't know what Shredder really wanted the Mousers for, as shown when he commented "That guy must really have a thing about rats," and I'm pretty sure Shredder was the one who stamped Baxter's name on them so he would get blamed when the city got torn apart. Baxter was just trying to start out, after all; he was living in a broken-down factory with shattered windows. I highly doubt he really had a company called "Baxter Stockman Inventions." Shredder probably made it up. I don't think Baxter was completely nuts during the early season 2 episodes, but his sanity was clearly teetering on the brink judging from the first episode of such. (And Curse of the Evil Eye showed him finally snapping and not putting up with the abuse anymore.) And then his sanity was completely gone after the cross-fusion. No, being nuts doesn't make the horrible things he did right, but I do think it gives him more sympathy. Plus, one has to remember that he was cross-fused with a fly and the fly's brain was clearly taking over more and more with each episode. That was obvious even without anything being said, but Baxter said as much in Bye, Bye, Fly. So he had both cracked up in general and another mind was eclipsing his. He just couldn't win.

(Also, is it a little immature of me that when I saw someone giggling over the fact that Z's energy-generated body looked naked, my response was to laugh back with basically, "Of course he's naked; that's obvious. But he didn't design it to be anatomically correct, LOL." That is to say, that person found it amusing he was naked, I found it amusing that said person was so amused since there wasn't anything that needed to be censored. And I don't mean I said anything to the person; I've never interacted with said person. But that was my mental response from afar, shall we say. And the point is briefly brought up in the stories when he decides to wear clothes.)

And wow, I went off on a tangent. That's what happens when one doesn't update for a while, I guess.

(Also, yay, DW does have a Saved Draft feature! Didn't realize that.)

Dreams

Apr. 23rd, 2017 05:52 pm
insaneladybug: (hamilton_shocked)
I had a lovely dream on Thursday. I dreamed that H.M. Wynant had made many movies for Disney (actually, he only made one, Tonka) and Disney was releasing them in an H.M. Wynant Collection. Herbie Goes to Monte Carlo was one of them, LOL. Random choice, brain. Then we were watching some old movie, and we were at the old house, and Grandma was still alive and we were showing it to her like we always used to do, and it seemed to be either a Western or taking place in the 1900s and H.M.'s character was wearing a straw hat and striped jacket and was singing to a crowd. The song weirdly enough included some of the lyrics of a silly song I wrote about his Perry Mason character. (That parody is one I'm most proud of, as the character's name is Mr. Sampson, and oh, how well that works for a parody of Mr. Santa/Sandman!)

It got weirder/more awesome by far when H.M. came to visit and I got to meet him and later have dinner with him and his wife (which was set up on a small table down in the old house's laundry room, WTH).

Bizarre settings, but awesomely epic dream. Waking up from that kind of dream is actually refreshing. It's nice for a change.

Then today, oh boy, I had one of my "I'm being chased" dreams again. This one was intense and scary, as it was an assassin after me. I think I knew something I wasn't supposed to know. I was alone in the house (something that's never the case in real-life), ran out, ran next-door for help, tried to call 911, messed up the address on the phone because the guy was breaking in, had to run away again both to protect myself and the people in the house.... Then I was back in my house again and had to run again, and thus began the mad chase. I ran up and down blocks, in and out of people's houses, encountering some people who turned up in prior dreams and eventually ending up in the dream world of my mom's childhood neighborhood. It looks and feels much creepier in the dream, even though in reality it's not a safe place anymore and hasn't been for years. I decided going to hide down the old street would be a bad idea because I could be tracked there, so after I passed the home of some relatives who still live there in actuality, I ran down a different street. I ended up at some old dilapidated house where I knew some private eye or lawyer or somebody lived. For some reason, I thought the guy would help me, so I ran inside. The guy was certainly unconventional, but he did agree to help. There were a few scenes of what seemed to be making plans for what to do and going to some dilapidated theatre to ... meet an informant or something.

Then ... I'm not sure what happened, if I woke up and went back to sleep and started some of the dream over, but it was night and I was home and I knew I had to go out and get to the downtown area to ... either get to that guy's house or meet him somewhere like Borders. And even though the home was definitely here, or based on here, the downtown area was the area in our old city. (Which is also where Mom's childhood neighborhood is in real-life.) So I started out and had to go past the cemetery, and it's also way bigger than in real-life, and it was making me very nervous. Then it was by the freeway in the dream, and I was walking alongside the freeway on the sidewalk to get downtown. And either someone was with me or I decided to get a tricycle to go faster than walking, WTH. Still not sure whether the one on the tricycle was me or if I was with her. And we did make it downtown and it seemed like we were going to Borders to meet the guy.

I often dream about taking such trips downtown, to Borders or Barnes and Noble or the big library. There's always a much more mysterious feeling over the whole place than in real-life. It's so interesting and weird both. As are the chase dreams. Assassin ones are freaking scary, but they're intense and exciting as I'm putting as much distance between him and me as possible. And it's always kind of nice revisiting the old neighborhoods in my dreams. Even though they're not exactly the same as in reality.
insaneladybug: (baxterstockman)
Dreamwidth reminds me a lot of how LJ used to be, back when they actually seemed to care about their users and made an effort to make the site fun. I remember how staff members used to write those cute, silly mysteries with the sites' mascots in newsletters. I loved that. Then they apparently lost interest and turned it over exclusively to the users to write. I think a couple of them made a brief effort, but it quickly died out then. I haven't thought about those cute story snippets in newsletters for a long time, but I was really sad when they stopped. I don't even know if anything goes on with the LJ mascots at all anymore. The site has seemed so cold and impersonal for years now. They used to do that Writer's Block feature too, and then that stopped. They did a community version for a while, but I think it died. And the formatting is all off because of those stupid "glitch" ads. I do wish DW was more active on the community scene, but maybe that will start to happen with this latest mass migration. Who knows. It's not like LJ has been very active with communities for ages either, except for the U.N.C.L.E. ones and a few other semi-exceptions here and there.

I'll probably make a short LJ post after this to see whether a couple of the people who still read my LJ have accounts here. It's a dilemma with wanting to post where they are, yet really getting fed up with LJ, possibly for good this time. I may decide to crosspost entries from here to LJ, at least for a while, so they can see. I don't know.

And my weird recurrent locations dreams strike again, with another creepy house dream set in that three-story house with ghosts. As usual in those dreams, I got stuck wandering in the eerie parts of the house. This time, I absolutely could not seem to find my way back to the normal parts. In past dreams, I always manage to eventually. And I met some of the ghosts. Two were fairly friendly and helpful, even though they said in life they murdered somebody (!). Yikes. Then there were a lot of evil ghosts who just plain liked to hurt people. Their ringleader seemed to be a ghost who had lost a loved one and was taking it out on everyone. There was definite danger that seemed to be coming to a head and there was the possibility that we were going to have to vacate the house immediately. I was wandering all over and still struggling to find the way back to the livable parts of the house, even with the helpful ghosts' assistance. And I got cornered by the bad ones and was desperately trying to escape while the Big Bad chased me with a forklift. (Yeah, I know.) But the dream ended with a glimmer of hope, as the loved one was graduating to becoming an angel and was coming to try to help her parent. So it ended looking like maybe we wouldn't have to leave.

That was such an intense and interesting dream, I might want to try adapting it into a story. I love when I can do that. Some of my favorite stories started out as dreams.

And speaking of glimmers (heh), I loved the two Pony episodes yesterday, which both starred Starlight Glimmer. It's really interesting seeing how far she's come and what she still needs to learn. She's a reforming bad guy and we're actually seeing her journey, as we also see with Sunset Shimmer in the movies. I love it!

Sweet.

Apr. 16th, 2017 05:18 am
insaneladybug: (barneystockman)
I've gotta say, I am absolutely loving how quiet this site is. Livejournal has been acting up and gobbling memory for months on end because of all the extra ads that aren't supposed to be there and that they claim are glitches, which they mysteriously don't fix. I've barely been on LJ for months, in part because of this.

A friend was telling me about her ideas for an alternate dimension she wants to write a story about. That, plus my aggravation over the movie Only Angels Have Wings, seem to have combined to cause me to have a dream about Baxter Stockman and Irma Langinstein from the 1987 Ninja Turtles series working for Baloo and Wildcat on TaleSpin. WTH. It seemed to be pre-series, so no Rebecca, Kit, or Molly. Irma was the secretary and ... I'm not sure what Baxter was doing. It was a world where humans and animals coexisted quite happily.

Telling my friend about it ended up causing me to wonder what would happen if Baxter and Barney somehow wandered into the My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic verse for a couple of hours. If they did, though, they would remain human and not be turned into animals. Oh no. Never. It would be like this way cute Stargate/Pony crossover story I found where the Stargate characters found their way to the Pony world but stayed human while there. Maybe I'll tinker with the idea in a blurb or maybe not. I've got plenty of actual story ideas to write! I'm on story #39 of my Turtles series.

It's kind of nice to be at this quiet, content stage. Sometimes I'm longing to buy a lot of things and trying to figure out how to divide my money to get the most possible out of it. Right now, there's nothing I seriously want and I'm enjoying just being happy with my Turtles DVDs and figures and Baxter plushie and my stories. And the Knight Rider complete series set I bought at Wal-Mart for $25. Squeee.

I do wish I could get the Mega Bloks Technodrome, though. Especially since it's the only way to get a Splinter figure right now. But it's highly unlikely I will ever be able to get that. Even on sale, it's $148, and that is ... kind of a ridiculous price to spend on one single item, let alone a toy. Sigh.
insaneladybug: (baxterstockman)
Livejournal's updated terms of service admittedly disturb me, now that I've actually looked through them. I thought Livejournal was still a collaboration, but it sounds more like it's completely shifted control overseas. At this point, I am seriously contemplating moving here for real. Livejournal is mostly dead these days anyway. Maybe it's time for a change.

Currently I'm backing up the rest of my entries on my [personal profile] ladybug_archive DW. Over here, I've moved a couple more LJ icons into my list. Still love Perry, but I'm also nuts about the 87 Ninja Turtles series and am writing a huge continuing fanfic series based around it, starting at the end of season 7. I love it.

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