May. 23rd, 2017

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So I finally finished that story I was working on and have gone on to the next one. But I worry I messed up. It took me a long time to think of how I wanted that story to end, and yesterday morning I thought I finally had it. I ended it with Barney asking Baxter to come live with him and Vincent, something he's wanted to ask for a long time but didn't because he was afraid it wouldn't work out considering all their past problems. He finally asked because of how Baxter had helped him during that dark time and how they had managed to overcome some more problems and grow closer. It was beautiful and I felt squeeful.

But ... dang it, I feel sad for Baxter to leave the apartment I gave him. I realized his lease wouldn't be up, so that might keep him there, and then I thought maybe he'd like to hang onto it anyway as a workshop or a place to go when he needed quiet time. Or maybe a place between shifts at Channel 6, as it's closer to Channel 6 than Barney's house. So all in all, maybe things won't really change that much from what they are right now, as he's mostly over at Barney's as it is but still goes to the apartment at times.

I guess we'll have to see. It's really a dilemma, because I want him to be with his brothers and that's what would make him happiest, but I still feel kind of sad if he's not in the building with April and Irma because I spent a lot of time thinking up the details of that idea and it meant a lot to me too. Maybe he'll still live at the apartment during the workdays and go to Barney's at night and on his days off?

Why.

May. 23rd, 2017 04:15 pm
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This has not been a great week. Or maybe month would be more accurate. And not just for me, either; gah, that horrible tragedy in the U.K....

On top of the things stressing me that I've mentioned in locked entries, now some of our closest friends in town are moving and Roger Moore is dead. I know I never quite got to where I liked him as much as other darlings, but he was still very special to me. I have a figure in his likeness and a Persuaders! picture on my wall. And a lot of DVDs. I really admire the work he did for UNICEF; that was very special, as is the fact that he considered it his crowning achievement over anything he did in the entertainment industry. He had a great sense of humor and I really liked his stance on some things, like being totally against hunting animals for sport. I also learned from reading articles today that he was actually a shy person. I can certainly relate to that. There was a lot of good in him and I am very sad to lose him. I feel so sad for his family and friends. The tributes I've been reading have been very moving and very sad.

I dread what's going to happen next.

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