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Stubborn chapter....
Mar. 31st, 2019 07:36 pmSqueeee, I actually got the Marik figure! I had great luck with available surveys on Valued Opinions and quickly earned enough Amazon gift cards to get him entirely with those! The one I wanted was still available, and I wasn't sure if he was new or not because he was listed as Collectible - Very Good, but the description sounded a little like he was new. When he arrived, he was very new! The box was extremely beat-up; the description had mentioned box damage. Of course, I didn't care about that since it was the only one I could get and the figure wasn't damaged. Inside, the tape was all in place and Marik and his accessories were wrapped in plastic. Very new! I'm thrilled.
I should probably get the Yugi figure next, since I don't have a Yugi, but I'm kind of drawn more to the Atem/Yami Yugi one. (Both of these figures move.) I kind of like the design more on Yami Yugi (Yugi's blond hair pieces seem rather flat), plus I'm a little annoyed that Yugi's Duel Disk can't be removed (especially since it's a Dark Side of Dimensions design and I'd rather think of him as anime Yugi instead of manga movie Yugi). But we'll see how I feel.
Dad picked up Sunbeam for me at a Target and she's so gorgeous. I have her and Twilight standing together and they both look so '80's, I love it.
Now I'm fighting with the climatic chapter of my Bendy fic. I needed something that would really set Anime Yami Bakura off, and I figured that would have to be Bakura being harmed. Of course, I also wanted something appropriately horrifying for the game world and IC for an antagonist Yami Bakura to cause. So Bakura and several other characters end up falling into the ink machine and are sacrificed during a fight with Bendy. There are clues in the game that the studio owner was sacrificing people to use their souls to power his living cartoon characters, and I decided Manga Yami Bakura would totally want that twist, even if Bakura being hurt was not planned. Problem is, I couldn't figure out where to go from there. In the morning I actually wrote some stuff where Bakura finds the two Yami Bakuras arguing, and his soul has been put in a Boris the Wolf body, and the other people who fell have had their souls used likewise, while their bodies are placed in coffins that are seen in the real game. But reading everything over now, I'm just not comfortable with the souls being shown in the cartoon character bodies because it's too brain-breaking for me. I already only picked certain characters because I knew absolutely I couldn't handle it happening to particular ones (like any of the Big 5), but it seems I can't handle it happening to any of them. I guess, like a friend of mine puts it, I find it humiliating and undignified for them to be stuck in such a situation. I never thought of things that way until she described how she felt, and then I realized that was how I felt too, rather than just finding certain things brain-breaking for me. So I tried a rewrite where no one knows where the souls are and keeping the coffin scene. But I'm not sure I can do that either, because somehow having their bodies in the coffins troubles me more than the stuff I wrote where Gansley was apparently killed and the others had to leave his body on the floor. I'm still struggling with the personal demons I've carried for almost a year now, and I'm just not sure I can do the coffin thing because of that. Coffins stir up too much pain. But then the other option would be the fallen people becoming ink monsters, which of course I'm also not comfortable with, and I'm just not sure what to do because I don't want to spoil this story due to my own real-life problems and I really did want to fit in the horrifying twist involving the ink machine.... I know eventually I'll figure it out, but right now it's very exasperating.
I should probably get the Yugi figure next, since I don't have a Yugi, but I'm kind of drawn more to the Atem/Yami Yugi one. (Both of these figures move.) I kind of like the design more on Yami Yugi (Yugi's blond hair pieces seem rather flat), plus I'm a little annoyed that Yugi's Duel Disk can't be removed (especially since it's a Dark Side of Dimensions design and I'd rather think of him as anime Yugi instead of manga movie Yugi). But we'll see how I feel.
Dad picked up Sunbeam for me at a Target and she's so gorgeous. I have her and Twilight standing together and they both look so '80's, I love it.
Now I'm fighting with the climatic chapter of my Bendy fic. I needed something that would really set Anime Yami Bakura off, and I figured that would have to be Bakura being harmed. Of course, I also wanted something appropriately horrifying for the game world and IC for an antagonist Yami Bakura to cause. So Bakura and several other characters end up falling into the ink machine and are sacrificed during a fight with Bendy. There are clues in the game that the studio owner was sacrificing people to use their souls to power his living cartoon characters, and I decided Manga Yami Bakura would totally want that twist, even if Bakura being hurt was not planned. Problem is, I couldn't figure out where to go from there. In the morning I actually wrote some stuff where Bakura finds the two Yami Bakuras arguing, and his soul has been put in a Boris the Wolf body, and the other people who fell have had their souls used likewise, while their bodies are placed in coffins that are seen in the real game. But reading everything over now, I'm just not comfortable with the souls being shown in the cartoon character bodies because it's too brain-breaking for me. I already only picked certain characters because I knew absolutely I couldn't handle it happening to particular ones (like any of the Big 5), but it seems I can't handle it happening to any of them. I guess, like a friend of mine puts it, I find it humiliating and undignified for them to be stuck in such a situation. I never thought of things that way until she described how she felt, and then I realized that was how I felt too, rather than just finding certain things brain-breaking for me. So I tried a rewrite where no one knows where the souls are and keeping the coffin scene. But I'm not sure I can do that either, because somehow having their bodies in the coffins troubles me more than the stuff I wrote where Gansley was apparently killed and the others had to leave his body on the floor. I'm still struggling with the personal demons I've carried for almost a year now, and I'm just not sure I can do the coffin thing because of that. Coffins stir up too much pain. But then the other option would be the fallen people becoming ink monsters, which of course I'm also not comfortable with, and I'm just not sure what to do because I don't want to spoil this story due to my own real-life problems and I really did want to fit in the horrifying twist involving the ink machine.... I know eventually I'll figure it out, but right now it's very exasperating.
