**repeated headdesk.**

So two and a half weeks ago, we were in the nearest metropolitan shopping area and I took an idle notion that as long as I was in a big crafting store (Hobby Lobby), why not check and see if they had orange or red craft fur, with the thought that maybe I'd maybe make a Barney plush if they did. They did not. I also remembered that our nearest Joann's did not. So I opted not to also check the Joann's in that other town.

I tried checking eBay with some success but not exactly what I wanted. This past day I tried searching some more and I ended up discovering that some Joann's do carry such a product, including the one I opted not to check. Maybe they didn't have any in stock at that time, but they probably did. I am so incredibly frustrated with myself. Unless we can convince Dad to let us go to Sears before they're gone, I probably won't be able to get to that Joann's or any other with the product in stock until the end of August.

On the plus side, I examined my two blank dolls and one of them is definitely the right build for Barney. I also have blue jeans cut out and ready to sew; they're an extra pair from when I made Baxter. And I have enough material for the vest, the coat, the ears, and the bowtie. I think I need some new shirt material. And I'm seriously thinking of buying that thinner wire that bends easier for the glasses. Maybe I'll redo Baxter's glasses if it works better.

Also contemplating whether or not my other blank doll can be Vincent. I figured I'd have to make him from scratch with blue cloth. So I guess I'd either be making a Caucasian Vincent or I'd have to get the courage to dye the other doll blue. Or I'll use it for someone else. But I know very well that once I make Barney, I'll want Vincent.

I'm a little concerned that making Barney will mean I won't pay as much attention to Baxter, though. Especially if Barney is made a little better/doesn't have the mistakes Baxter ended up with. My attention usually does get divided when there's more than one, like when I got Fluttershy in addition to my Build-a-Bear Twilight. And I have liked when it's just Baxter and me, LOL. But I do like the thought of making Barney more and more and hopefully I'd try to give Baxter and Barney equal attention, like I do with my Ginger and Lou plushies.

I'm also increasingly panicked to get back to K-Mart before a lot more time goes by. The bag completely satisfied my desire for TMNT wearable merchandise at the time, but I started wanting an 87 series styled shirt again before too long. I'm back to liking that America, the Radical shirt in spite of the problems I might run into explaining over and over that "radical" in that sense is surfer slang and basically means awesome. But I'd take the other, more expensive shirt if its price has come down. Or the Leonardo hat that I hoped I'd be able to get since they had a lot of them. Now I'm no longer sure I especially want the Miraculous Ladybug figures, because I had a very disturbing dream involving those characters and it may take a good while to get the bad taste out of my mind/not think of the dream every time I see the characters. Ugh. I hope it's gone by the time the show comes back in the fall. Or maybe the bad taste will be gone if I go and they still have the figures and the price for them has come down even more. Heh.

Also listening to Imagine Dragons' song Believer on Repeat. Ladyamberjo introduced me to the band and the song, and from the first time I heard it I immediately thought of Baxter and Barney (well, especially my versions of them). I really want to do a breakdown of the lyrics and who sings which parts, as I picture it being both of them. I think it's mostly Barney, though.