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Jan. 6th, 2018 05:25 pmUgh, I hate insomnia....
I finished putting up the fic where Jessie is hurt. I've also finished the mask fic, but I'm unsure whether to post it next or not. It seems a little like I should probably find something else to squeeze in between instead of bombarding people with such a dark fic, especially after one of the themes of the one I just finished is Jessie trying to overcome her abusive tendencies and then the mask one has that problem in spades (albeit when she's corrupted). Of course, they don't take place one after the other, but I don't know how readers would take it.
Problem is, I don't think I have anything lighter, unless I finally decide to try posting the human Meowth vignettes. I'm still nervous about that one being crossover-ish. And I haven't figured out how to divide it up yet. And then I planned to keep it open so I could add to it whenever I got an idea.
I also have a Christmas oneshot I haven't finished writing yet. It's just short and sweet, inspired by the song Someone's Missing at Christmas, with James missing and thought dead and Jessie hearing that song and being frustrated by it. And then James comes back alive. But I thought it might be better to withhold that one even if I do finish it, since I really want the mask fic to have an impact and too many instances of James being thought dead probably reduces the intensity.
(Then I think that well, Ash sure has almost died a lot in the movies and that never loses its impact, so maybe I shouldn't worry too much, but I know people were frustrated years ago when I couldn't stop writing stuff like that for YGO, so these days I really try to be more cautious.)
I could work on my follow-up to A Hero Lies in You, but then that deals a lot with the fall-out from that story (which was James being killed by a vicious Pokemon), so again, I might rather wait until sometime after I post the mask fic.
Right now I'm adding some to the Team Rocket downfall fic, but I think I need to post some other fics before I put this one up, including the follow-up to A Hero Lies in You. Otherwise, the end probably won't make as much sense/have enough impact. Plus, there's the group apparently sacrificing themselves while bringing down the organization. I'm toying with writing a blurb or two following this fic and showing the various ups and downs of Team Rocket trying to travel with Ash and company, and also the impact of when one of them finally calls Ash by his name, as I imagine that will be a powerful moment. But those would just be private for me until I get the downfall fic up. Then the follow-up would probably be a vignette series like the human Meowth stuff.
I also started the fic picking up directly after the second movie. Tentatively it will have a lot of Brock and maybe show what happened with him and Ivy (although I'm still not sure it was anything more than her rejecting him as a boyfriend). But I'm waffling on it because it goes with the premise of everyone continuing to think Team Rocket is dead, which goes against my timeline, and once I've started a timeline and am invested in it, I really hate to write something that goes against said timeline. And then there's also the trouble of I want impact for the mask fic and maybe there won't be with other instances of any or all of them thought dead. And one more issue: I hate for Team Rocket to continue playing dead when it's hurting people, albeit they certainly have no idea that it is. They're absolutely stunned to find out the twerps feel bad about it at all.
I was watching the Lucario movie again today too. I bought it, the third movie, and another of the kiddie Pokemon books (the silly one about the Shuckle juice, LOL) with some gift money a friend sent me. And I got a plunnie of Jessie and James thought dead and Meowth temporarily traveling with Ash and company because of it. I might write a blurb scene later of him just sadly talking to Ash late at night under a full moon. I guess I could alter this to Jessie and James being missing but not thought dead, but that might lessen some of the impact. On the other hand, maybe what I really want to get across would be the same. And I could have Meowth worrying about them and Ash trying to comfort him.
In the end, all my troubles would be solved if I knew the readers would be chill. When I'm not sure how they'll react, I'm left to try to sort out exactly what to do since I have very few stories that don't deal either with someone eventually being nearly killed or with them being thought dead or with the fall-out from such a problem. I really want to share the mask fic, especially when it's all done, but I don't know if it's a good idea to launch right into it now. Since that's my true desire, however, I probably will. After I read it over again and decide if it needs more fleshing out after all. It's probably going to be divided in half. It could go up as a long oneshot, but I think dividing it in two would work better.
Another problem is that I don't want to stop the Turtles series, but I really long to write for the Pokemon characters and that means that to do both I need more crossover material, but I don't know how the readers for either series would take to that either. Sometime I want to have Vernon and James meet and take an instant dislike to each other, LOL. They refuse to believe they have any similarities at all, although they have two or three.
I've also been considering re-writing all of the old fics. I'd already mentioned possibly redoing Rock Slide!, and now I sort of want to redo Bolt of Truth too. I don't know how that would work, though, as it probably wouldn't be different like Dead and Alive Redux so much as just expanded on what's already there. So I wouldn't know whether to replace the old version with the new one or post the new one separately, and whether to keep up the old one or delete it. I know if I did redo it, I'd want as many people to see the new version as possible, which would mean posting it separately would be better than just replacing the text of the old one. But deleting the old one would stymie a lot of people who have Favorited it. Still, I don't know if having them both up would be a good idea if they're not vastly different like the two Dead and Alives are.
I've been debating whether I want to make a Pokemon website similar to my other sites, with a fic list order and info on the verse and such. Part of me says it's a good idea and the other part doesn't want to take the time.
I'm also debating what I want to buy with the rest of my gift money. I also bought DuckTales volumes 2 and 3 with some of it. (Two friends and an aunt all gave me gift money, which has been awesome.) I could get the Ash and Misty figures with the rest, but I'm not fully sure if I want to do that. I really want Mewtwo Returns, but I keep hesitating on getting the VHS because I really want to see if there's any hope of finding the DVD at the nearest F.Y.E., but it just seems like we'll never get there and they probably don't have it anyway, so I should give up on that being a factor. Then there are some season 4 Johto episodes I'd like to see again, but I don't know if I want them enough to buy season 4 after season 3 has left me so frustrated. I remember seasons 3 and 4 often made me mad 15 years ago, but I wasn't sure if I would feel the same now or not. Perhaps I feel even more that way now, after re-watching season 1 and seeing all of 2 and all the times Team Rocket got to be awesome there, and knowing it's not my imagination that Johto usually wasn't very nice to them. Even though I have more fascination for the world as a whole now, Team Rocket is still my favorite thing and when they're not treated well by the writers, I quickly want to bail. So ... do I really want to spend $30 for season 4 if I'll be as repeatedly disappointed as season 3 has made me? Or did they have more stand-out/non-betrayal episodes in season 4 than they did 3 and I'd be happier with season 4 than I was with 3? All I remember is that episodes like the Wobbufett Festival are from season 4 and I definitely considered that a betrayal from the writers!
One thing I definitely love is this shirt. After waiting 15 years to have a Team Rocket shirt, it feels so good to finally have one! And I think it was totally worth paying the full price for it. I even think the sale price probably made it too cheap, although I would have loved to have gotten it at that price. But I sure don't regret getting it even though I had to pay nearly $5 more. I would have preferred the Classic Era art style, of course, but I'm just thrilled to have any official art style with them.
At least I'm not waffling about artwork. I did sketch Bonnie and Clyde, and decided to draw some inspiration from the real-life Clyde to try to make the character not look like a Butch re-color. Haven't colored the picture yet, though, and I don't know if I will, since I just wanted to get down what they basically look like for personal reference. And I drew another human Meowth picture, which amuses me. I also finally got the picture done of possessed James holding Ash out over the widow's walk railing, which is just creepy. http://meromeroyui.deviantart.com
I finished putting up the fic where Jessie is hurt. I've also finished the mask fic, but I'm unsure whether to post it next or not. It seems a little like I should probably find something else to squeeze in between instead of bombarding people with such a dark fic, especially after one of the themes of the one I just finished is Jessie trying to overcome her abusive tendencies and then the mask one has that problem in spades (albeit when she's corrupted). Of course, they don't take place one after the other, but I don't know how readers would take it.
Problem is, I don't think I have anything lighter, unless I finally decide to try posting the human Meowth vignettes. I'm still nervous about that one being crossover-ish. And I haven't figured out how to divide it up yet. And then I planned to keep it open so I could add to it whenever I got an idea.
I also have a Christmas oneshot I haven't finished writing yet. It's just short and sweet, inspired by the song Someone's Missing at Christmas, with James missing and thought dead and Jessie hearing that song and being frustrated by it. And then James comes back alive. But I thought it might be better to withhold that one even if I do finish it, since I really want the mask fic to have an impact and too many instances of James being thought dead probably reduces the intensity.
(Then I think that well, Ash sure has almost died a lot in the movies and that never loses its impact, so maybe I shouldn't worry too much, but I know people were frustrated years ago when I couldn't stop writing stuff like that for YGO, so these days I really try to be more cautious.)
I could work on my follow-up to A Hero Lies in You, but then that deals a lot with the fall-out from that story (which was James being killed by a vicious Pokemon), so again, I might rather wait until sometime after I post the mask fic.
Right now I'm adding some to the Team Rocket downfall fic, but I think I need to post some other fics before I put this one up, including the follow-up to A Hero Lies in You. Otherwise, the end probably won't make as much sense/have enough impact. Plus, there's the group apparently sacrificing themselves while bringing down the organization. I'm toying with writing a blurb or two following this fic and showing the various ups and downs of Team Rocket trying to travel with Ash and company, and also the impact of when one of them finally calls Ash by his name, as I imagine that will be a powerful moment. But those would just be private for me until I get the downfall fic up. Then the follow-up would probably be a vignette series like the human Meowth stuff.
I also started the fic picking up directly after the second movie. Tentatively it will have a lot of Brock and maybe show what happened with him and Ivy (although I'm still not sure it was anything more than her rejecting him as a boyfriend). But I'm waffling on it because it goes with the premise of everyone continuing to think Team Rocket is dead, which goes against my timeline, and once I've started a timeline and am invested in it, I really hate to write something that goes against said timeline. And then there's also the trouble of I want impact for the mask fic and maybe there won't be with other instances of any or all of them thought dead. And one more issue: I hate for Team Rocket to continue playing dead when it's hurting people, albeit they certainly have no idea that it is. They're absolutely stunned to find out the twerps feel bad about it at all.
I was watching the Lucario movie again today too. I bought it, the third movie, and another of the kiddie Pokemon books (the silly one about the Shuckle juice, LOL) with some gift money a friend sent me. And I got a plunnie of Jessie and James thought dead and Meowth temporarily traveling with Ash and company because of it. I might write a blurb scene later of him just sadly talking to Ash late at night under a full moon. I guess I could alter this to Jessie and James being missing but not thought dead, but that might lessen some of the impact. On the other hand, maybe what I really want to get across would be the same. And I could have Meowth worrying about them and Ash trying to comfort him.
In the end, all my troubles would be solved if I knew the readers would be chill. When I'm not sure how they'll react, I'm left to try to sort out exactly what to do since I have very few stories that don't deal either with someone eventually being nearly killed or with them being thought dead or with the fall-out from such a problem. I really want to share the mask fic, especially when it's all done, but I don't know if it's a good idea to launch right into it now. Since that's my true desire, however, I probably will. After I read it over again and decide if it needs more fleshing out after all. It's probably going to be divided in half. It could go up as a long oneshot, but I think dividing it in two would work better.
Another problem is that I don't want to stop the Turtles series, but I really long to write for the Pokemon characters and that means that to do both I need more crossover material, but I don't know how the readers for either series would take to that either. Sometime I want to have Vernon and James meet and take an instant dislike to each other, LOL. They refuse to believe they have any similarities at all, although they have two or three.
I've also been considering re-writing all of the old fics. I'd already mentioned possibly redoing Rock Slide!, and now I sort of want to redo Bolt of Truth too. I don't know how that would work, though, as it probably wouldn't be different like Dead and Alive Redux so much as just expanded on what's already there. So I wouldn't know whether to replace the old version with the new one or post the new one separately, and whether to keep up the old one or delete it. I know if I did redo it, I'd want as many people to see the new version as possible, which would mean posting it separately would be better than just replacing the text of the old one. But deleting the old one would stymie a lot of people who have Favorited it. Still, I don't know if having them both up would be a good idea if they're not vastly different like the two Dead and Alives are.
I've been debating whether I want to make a Pokemon website similar to my other sites, with a fic list order and info on the verse and such. Part of me says it's a good idea and the other part doesn't want to take the time.
I'm also debating what I want to buy with the rest of my gift money. I also bought DuckTales volumes 2 and 3 with some of it. (Two friends and an aunt all gave me gift money, which has been awesome.) I could get the Ash and Misty figures with the rest, but I'm not fully sure if I want to do that. I really want Mewtwo Returns, but I keep hesitating on getting the VHS because I really want to see if there's any hope of finding the DVD at the nearest F.Y.E., but it just seems like we'll never get there and they probably don't have it anyway, so I should give up on that being a factor. Then there are some season 4 Johto episodes I'd like to see again, but I don't know if I want them enough to buy season 4 after season 3 has left me so frustrated. I remember seasons 3 and 4 often made me mad 15 years ago, but I wasn't sure if I would feel the same now or not. Perhaps I feel even more that way now, after re-watching season 1 and seeing all of 2 and all the times Team Rocket got to be awesome there, and knowing it's not my imagination that Johto usually wasn't very nice to them. Even though I have more fascination for the world as a whole now, Team Rocket is still my favorite thing and when they're not treated well by the writers, I quickly want to bail. So ... do I really want to spend $30 for season 4 if I'll be as repeatedly disappointed as season 3 has made me? Or did they have more stand-out/non-betrayal episodes in season 4 than they did 3 and I'd be happier with season 4 than I was with 3? All I remember is that episodes like the Wobbufett Festival are from season 4 and I definitely considered that a betrayal from the writers!
One thing I definitely love is this shirt. After waiting 15 years to have a Team Rocket shirt, it feels so good to finally have one! And I think it was totally worth paying the full price for it. I even think the sale price probably made it too cheap, although I would have loved to have gotten it at that price. But I sure don't regret getting it even though I had to pay nearly $5 more. I would have preferred the Classic Era art style, of course, but I'm just thrilled to have any official art style with them.
At least I'm not waffling about artwork. I did sketch Bonnie and Clyde, and decided to draw some inspiration from the real-life Clyde to try to make the character not look like a Butch re-color. Haven't colored the picture yet, though, and I don't know if I will, since I just wanted to get down what they basically look like for personal reference. And I drew another human Meowth picture, which amuses me. I also finally got the picture done of possessed James holding Ash out over the widow's walk railing, which is just creepy. http://meromeroyui.deviantart.com
