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insaneladybugSomehow I find it distressing that when picking up the threads of a fic that stalled 12 years ago, I can't make any of the remaining chapters anywhere as long. Crescent Blue has always loved my story Until You Find the Answers and I've always tried to think of a way to finish it since she wanted to see that happen so much. I finally got it rolling again, but all of the other chapters are shorter. She's fine with it, but I'm frustrated with myself. I mean, the first chapter was 10,000+ words! Then, picking it up again, the other three chapters are getting progressively shorter: 7,000+ words, 6,000+ words, 5,000+ words.... That's like, half the length of the first one by the end! I guess it's just changing writing styles and not having as much to say with the other chapters, but it feels like I've failed and I just didn't dig as deep.
The story was a psychological thriller with the corporate businessmen being attacked one by one, and having to figure out something about themselves in the course of the disaster. Siegfried's chapter was first, and he was easy. I had so much to say and explore. I guess it doesn't hurt that canon only gave us glimpses, though, so I was filling in a lot. Then Pegasus has honestly never been a favorite character and having to do a chapter for him is what stalled the story for 12 years, LOL. I finally did come up with something. Dartz I like okay, although I prefer other characters. And it seemed like I'd already explored him quite a bit. Ditto with Seto, as far as exploring him goes. Not to mention, canon explored him a lot as it was. Maybe, possibly, that's why the Seto chapter is so blinkin' short, because between canon and myself, it seems like his mysteries have mostly already been exposed.
I'm really happy to have the story done and out of the way at last so I can feel free to move on to other projects. Once I revived it, I had this OCD need to finish it before starting my next multi-chapter epic, LOL. Although the Seto chapter may be important to the next epic, in which case I really had to finish this one first. Hopefully I won't have to keep feeling so distressed about the differences in chapter length. I keep trying to think what more I could say and my mind is just a blank. But I keep feeling like I didn't deliver as well as I could have and I didn't make the wait worth it when the other chapters don't match up to Siegfried's in length and intricacies. Still, I guess if Crescent Blue is happy anyway and doesn't see a problem, that's the most important thing.
Also, I kept feeling like Yami Bakura was so awful to do what he did to Bonz and company and that was one of the nastiest things he did, etc. etc. ... but this morning I re-watched Arena of Lost Souls. I don't know how I managed to not really think about it before, but Bonz and his friends all quite willingly trapped Yugi-tachi in that cave. And unless they knew there was another way out, as far as they knew they were sealing them in there to die. WTH. And there was no indication they weren't thinking exactly that. Somehow that seems especially disturbing when they're relatively average, normal people (i.e., not hardened villains, etc.) and Bonz is a kid (or a teen whose voice hasn't broke yet). And then, when I watched the Yami Bakura vs. Bonz duel afterwards, it was ... honestly hard to feel that badly for Bonz and company. Not that I'd want them to be trapped wherever (Hell, the Shadow Realm, take your pick) forever, but I think they deserved a good scare for what they did in season 1. I have them get free after Yami Bakura's defeat later that night, and they're pretty shaken up. Don't know if they tried turning over new leaves, though. I'll probably get around to exploring that soon.
I also got a plunnie that maybe Yami Bakura will reveal that he wasn't just tormenting Bonz and company for the heck of it, but because he was furious they tried to harm Bakura. Judging from the manga, that's actually a canon reason why he will attack people. Of course, manga and anime verses are different, but there's never any real indication that the anime version doesn't share that trait, especially since he protected Bakura against Slifer in both verses.
The story was a psychological thriller with the corporate businessmen being attacked one by one, and having to figure out something about themselves in the course of the disaster. Siegfried's chapter was first, and he was easy. I had so much to say and explore. I guess it doesn't hurt that canon only gave us glimpses, though, so I was filling in a lot. Then Pegasus has honestly never been a favorite character and having to do a chapter for him is what stalled the story for 12 years, LOL. I finally did come up with something. Dartz I like okay, although I prefer other characters. And it seemed like I'd already explored him quite a bit. Ditto with Seto, as far as exploring him goes. Not to mention, canon explored him a lot as it was. Maybe, possibly, that's why the Seto chapter is so blinkin' short, because between canon and myself, it seems like his mysteries have mostly already been exposed.
I'm really happy to have the story done and out of the way at last so I can feel free to move on to other projects. Once I revived it, I had this OCD need to finish it before starting my next multi-chapter epic, LOL. Although the Seto chapter may be important to the next epic, in which case I really had to finish this one first. Hopefully I won't have to keep feeling so distressed about the differences in chapter length. I keep trying to think what more I could say and my mind is just a blank. But I keep feeling like I didn't deliver as well as I could have and I didn't make the wait worth it when the other chapters don't match up to Siegfried's in length and intricacies. Still, I guess if Crescent Blue is happy anyway and doesn't see a problem, that's the most important thing.
Also, I kept feeling like Yami Bakura was so awful to do what he did to Bonz and company and that was one of the nastiest things he did, etc. etc. ... but this morning I re-watched Arena of Lost Souls. I don't know how I managed to not really think about it before, but Bonz and his friends all quite willingly trapped Yugi-tachi in that cave. And unless they knew there was another way out, as far as they knew they were sealing them in there to die. WTH. And there was no indication they weren't thinking exactly that. Somehow that seems especially disturbing when they're relatively average, normal people (i.e., not hardened villains, etc.) and Bonz is a kid (or a teen whose voice hasn't broke yet). And then, when I watched the Yami Bakura vs. Bonz duel afterwards, it was ... honestly hard to feel that badly for Bonz and company. Not that I'd want them to be trapped wherever (Hell, the Shadow Realm, take your pick) forever, but I think they deserved a good scare for what they did in season 1. I have them get free after Yami Bakura's defeat later that night, and they're pretty shaken up. Don't know if they tried turning over new leaves, though. I'll probably get around to exploring that soon.
I also got a plunnie that maybe Yami Bakura will reveal that he wasn't just tormenting Bonz and company for the heck of it, but because he was furious they tried to harm Bakura. Judging from the manga, that's actually a canon reason why he will attack people. Of course, manga and anime verses are different, but there's never any real indication that the anime version doesn't share that trait, especially since he protected Bakura against Slifer in both verses.
